OKAY, so its so weird when you think you don't care about someone but you really do until something happens and BOOM your right back where you were from the start! I feel so CONFUSED when I think about him. Do you not care anymore? Even though you say I LOVE YOU  and here some other kid shows up, and shows me that there are other people in this world who knows how to love someone and who deserves it. I think its just me saying this but I am OUT OF LOVE. I just don't know anymore. What am I supposed to do? Stay with the person I used to love? or Stay with the some stranger that I hardly even know? Its a difficult question. I cared about this stranger so long ago but then out of no where POP  here you come!

I know I haven't wrote in my xanga in such a long time, but there are so many different things happening in my life UGHH! Im just so confused!

OKAY!!
So I wake up at like 11 this morning because my dad wants me to take my dog out for a walk, right and some man come up to me, okay remember this is like 11 in the morning, so he come up to me and is like you got a cigarette? So I said no, and he said do you want one? In my head I was like what was the point of you asking me for some jacks and next thing you know you have jacks of your own??? So to me I thought that was stupid. So I said no thanks thats okay. He keeps talking to me and asking what kind of dog I have and I say a miniature doberman, he goes oh really i have one just like that you wanna see him. I was like,"ohh HELL NOOO!?" "what the hell do you take me for?" and hes like "naww I was just asking if you wanted to see my dog?" and I said no!! So he keeps asking me these questions, and hes like whats your name? I said jenna. hes like how old are you im like eight-teen and he was like oh ferreal?? and like he come closer to me, and good thing RIGHT ON TIME my dog is done doing her business and she come and starts barking at the guy and like she chases him away. and im like OMG thank you girl, cuz my dog is a girl. So like i go back in the house and I was gonna go back to sleep when my dad says lets go to the insurance company. So I walk my ass to my room wanting to go back to sleep but I change. So we drive to the insurance company and your are now reading of a insured driver! yes i have not yet had before this day insurance and i've been driving for more then a year and a half. hahah

okay and another story...
So my aunt calls us to go eat lunch with my fam bam, and then we have a family trip to... COSTCO! okay so, Sharon tells me that Jessica is in DEBT! muhahah because he ass bought a car that she does not deserve in a place that she does not know how to drive and that whats she gets. shes gets into a accident. (not a BAD accident) she hit some lady in the back. so the lady tells Jess that shes not going to sue her but guess what SHE DOES!! haha so shes in debt for $3000 hahah. okay but she ask bubba for $3000 or else she goes to jail! and I do not believe that bubba is going to lend her $3000.... and thats that

okay THIS IS THE EXCITING PART!
So after me and my rents eat dinner I drive to take my aunt home. right
and when me and my mom come home. my dad is on the phone with josphine (a lady that works at washington hosp.) and he smiles at me right and I mean like a BIG SMILE. and i go to my mommy and i hug her so tight and shes like what happened?! I said dad might be getting his transplant tonight!! and she hugs me back and she starts crying!! So me my mom and my dad are hopefully going to washington hospital tonight when Josphine calls us.
Thina just pray for us pls. I just hope that we do get this transplant. its been 6 yrs...

Just keep praying.

Okay!!
So im over here listening to "Life Love Everything" by Gabe Bondoc I think he is pretty cute. So me and Joe had a big fight yesterday. So he went to Alyssa R. party the night before and he came home around 1oclock or something, but when when he called I was sleeping I wasn't worried about him drinking or anything, so I called him the moring after and I asked him what happened he said I don't remember I said uhh okay did you drink alot he was like I dont remember. Then I said okay. So we started watching House M.D. and I log on to his facebook and hes talking to one of MY friends, and he goes on talking to her right?!, right, and so I keep reading and hes like "so are you talking to anyone?!" and she said ya im talking to this one guy but its tricky. THEN he says "oh cuz I think your cute" and so I tell him I saw the convo. and hes like Sandy I dont remember anything. Then I hung up with phone. and I talk to him on aim. saying NO I dont want to talk to you anymore and go be with her and stuff... and hes like the reason why i dont remeber anything is cuz i smoked a blunt and I dont remember anything. I said whatever. Im done talking to you. and we started talking about stuff.. but he said sorry for it. and he was crying so i know he was sorry. I don't know I can't let him go for some reason. I guess hes my Life my Love my EVERYTHING tehehe.

Okay!!
to the hell with that. I have class today and I have to reregister I KNOW it sucks. I set myself up. I wanna go get my nails did. but its whatever. I have to do laundry today. so I guess i'll do it now. IF I HAVE TO...

love you thina!